The Rumbling of Direction

Posted: August 20, 2010 in Uncategorized

(July 23, 2010)

So, as I’m sitting here pondering the greater callings of life (translation: what to have for lunch), I keep finding myself whisked away to this thought of “direction.” I know this sounds far too deep of a concept to be intertwined in the midst of whether to go to Chipotle or Subway, but I promise it fits. Just stay with me.

For the past few months I’ve been working on a number of different items of importance. Things like what to do with Project:Ignite over the course of the future – which entails how to raise money, rally support, and plan/execute events and initiatives with efficiency and effectiveness. Also things like where am I going to focus my higher educational goals at – what college should I pursue for the rest of my college degrees, and how should I plan and schedule it around other things like having a social life, and working Project:Ignite. Basically, all of these things are how I am going to shape my future, and I’ve been working on how to actually do these things. Thus is my problem. I have no idea how to do them.

But the more I plan and work over things in my head and on paper, I keep hitting this wall. Not a literal wall, mind you, but a metaphorical one. One that says, “Hey, what are you doing?” One that says, “Hey, where are you going?” and one that says, “Hey, can you stop procrastinating with metaphors and actually accomplish something??” This is a very smart wall. And the more I struggled with trying to get around this wall, the more I found myself stuck. This wall has been plaguing me for weeks now, and I just can’t seem to get around it.

I’ve always felt that I was an individual of vision and imagination. Someone who could think of ways to make things happen when conventional means wouldn’t cut it. I’m not being arrogant, I don’t think. It’s a strength of mine, and I’ve always tried to recognize and utilize my strengths – as should everyone (but that’s for another note…). So, you can understand how frustrating it has been not being able to overcome a wall, and a mental one at that.

So, now, back to the lunch dilemma.

I can’t decide for the life of me what I want to eat for lunch. I know that I am dying of hunger (or at least hungry enough to exaggerate my physical well-being), but I have no idea where to go to tame this insatiable desire for sustenance. Then it dawned on me: I’m facing the same wall with stinkin’ lunch that I’ve been facing with planning my future. Now, granted, I don’t believe that my lunch today is ranking in equal importance to how I should plan my future. Nor do I believe that my future is ranking in equal importance to that of which food service establishment I should visit for lunch. There must be something underlying that is tying into both of these issues, but has the same level of importance.

Then, like a wonderfully peaceful freight train, it hits me.

Direction.

Whether I’m planning my future out to be as awesome and as God-serving as possible, or if I’m deciding between going to Chipotle or Subway for lunch, I need direction. Without direction, I’m absolutely lost.

God is all about us having an awesome life, or an awesome lunch for that matter. Especially when our goal is to serve Him and bring Him fame through what we do. But we have to submit the way we do it up to Him. I’m determining for Project:Ignite to be a means for revival in the heart of America, a connection to the persecuted church overseas, and a means to reclaim the arts for their original intention. How I’ll actually DO these things, I have no clue. But I don’t have to. My mental wall is just that, a mental wall. Our need to know exactly how the future will work is a mental issue that we pose to ourselves because we’re uncomfortable with not knowing the whole plan. Sometimes we just have to have a dream and let God do the rest.

So now as I sit here, pondering the higher callings of life, I feel a little more at peace. I don’t need to know exactly how I’m going to accomplish all my goals. I’m not going to be lazy and reckless with my future, but I know that God will have me covered and lead me where I’m supposed to go as long as I trust in Him and commit my ways to Him. I have a vision in my heart to do something awesome for God. I have a goal in my mind to perform in my academic career with excellence. I have a rumbling in my tummy to ingest the wonders of the dine-in experience. I’m just gonna let God work out the how…except for the lunch thing. I’m going to Subway.

“A man’s heart plans his way, but YHWH directs his steps.” (Proverbs 16:9)

“Commit your way to YHWH, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday. Rest in YHWH, and wait patiently for Him; do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass. Cease from anger, and forsake wrath; Do not fret—it only causes harm.” (Psalm 37:5-8)

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